It’s been an interesting few days.
First and foremost, I’d like to congratulate my best friend and lovely blogger Zal for getting published on WoW.com.
The issue of Cranky Healer, Too Many Annas, and SAN, is one that’s affected me quite a lot.
I am a sensitive soul, and an easily upset one. I am dedicated to my friends and my guild, and I’m loyal. I adore every person who ever commented on my blog, or who linked me in their blogroll. I read blogs avidly, absorbing information, loving writing style.
Now, to the issue in hand.
I’ve exchanged comments with Cranky Healer. I’ve read her blog, she’s read mine. I think she’s lovely. I think she’s probably quite like me – sensitive. I have never exchanged comments with Too Many Annas. I used to subscribe to her blog, and I’d give her posts a quick flick through. But, I’m not an RPer. I am, quite frankly, not even slightly interested in other peoples’ RP on blogs and forums. I like it in game, but more of that later. I don’t want to read fan-fiction, I don’t want to read long long blog posts tracking an individual story. I have books for that. So what do I do? I just. don’t. read. it.
As for my own RP…it doesn’t happen. Elsen, my main, seems to have developed her own personality and character over the 2 years I’ve been staring at the back of her head. My baby alts, Sapph and Petranne, have started to grow as characters. However I play on a PvE server, and anyway if I wanted to RP with Elsen she’s simply wrong from the word go cos she’s a female druid and they barely even exist ANYWAY. So that leaves me with my SAN character. A belf warlock. She has the first face, the first hair, the first eyes, that were selected. I’m not inherently evil, and if I was, I’d be rubbish at hiding it – I’ve always got Garjub, my friendly imp, out. I’d be rubbish at RPing with that too.
Now, I have no objection to other peoples RP. I find it fascinating. I would love to sit somewhere quiet and watch people genuinely immersing themselves in a proper RP world – passing plates to each other, chatting about their day, discussing whether or not Lor’themar Theron wears socks with suspenders or not.
But I would probably find it amusing, funny and have a damn good giggle if I saw some vampire RP going on. As would, let’s face it, a lot of us. If people want to get on their god damn high horses and proclaim they’ve never sniggered at a gnome and a tauren getting it on in Shattrath’s Lower City then they’re talking out of their arses.
I see a world of hypocrisy around me right now.
I see bloggers throwing abuse and nastyness at a newish blogger. I see people jumping on the bandwagon without taking the time to talk to Cranky, chat to her, see what’s happening from her point of view, first.
I see members of SAN covering their own arses before thinking of anyone else. The number of comments on Annas post from random SAN members, throwing themselves in there – “nothing to do with me, nothing to do with me! PLEASE BE AWARE THIS WAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME, I’D LIKE TO SUCK UP SOME MORE”.
We are, as Byaghro says, a community. We are supposed to support one another. There are bloggers out there, like Too Many Annas, Matticus (although I consider that a news website, not a blog), Gevlon, these people have so many people reading them every day.
They are of a different world to the rest of us. I used to hold people of that ‘status’ almost in what I would call high regard – I used to think, “wow. How awesome must they be to have built up such a readership”. But with such a readership comes responsibility. The responsibility to think before you post. To think about what someone’s intentions were.
If you’re going to start some blogging war or to throw abuse at some poor, starting out blogger, think about it first. Don’t be like people that drive jeeps in the middle of city centres. Just because you have the biggest car it doesn’t give you the right to drive like a mother fucking lunatic and crush the tiny Fiat Pandas under your MASSIVE MOTHER FUCKING WHEELS.
I thought that those people in SAN were a community by themselves. I thought we would band together and stick together – smaller bloggers. I would have thought that those who know Cranky and know her blog and her posts and members of SAN would automatically say – “hey, Anna, hold your horses. Take your post down, rephrase it. Unquote Cranky, she’s apologised for all this completely unintentional upset, you’ve killed a blogger today, please, rethink your actions”.
However all I have seen is a load of people throwing themselves at the feet of a big blogger, making sure they are seen as not being involved.I’ve also seen the leadership of SAN covering SAN’s arses – “it’s not done by the guild, it’s not promoted by the guild, please note, it’s got nothing to do with the guild”. I have all the time in the world of Tam and Miss Medicina, I love them both as bloggers and from what I’ve seen, as people. And I understand why they would want to remove any negative connotations people have with SAN, the guild has been a nice place.
I truly hope that when they were making all the effort to remove SANs association with Cranky, they supported her too. She was – and in my mind still is – part of our community and she deserves our support.
I haven’t logged on to SAN for a few days, because I originally started my character on Argent Dawn for a bit of peace and quiet and to talk to someone I saw as a pal to chat to.
However right now I am seriously doubting my membership to SAN because this is now the second piece of drama in a week. I am also seriously doubting whether I even want to blog anymore, after this truly despicable treatment of ‘one of our own’.